Through all of this my self-esteem has suffered. I haven't ever had the greatest self-esteem...some people think I do, but I really don't. I look in the mirror and immediately see every flaw I have. I find flaws about everything in my life. My friends and family claim that I'm delusional and they claim that they don't see the flaws I see. I think they're just being nice. I have an extremely hard time believing people when they compliment me. I usually just say, "Thank you", while on the inside I'm thinking, "You're just trying to be nice".
A friend of mine recently gave me a list of all the things "the world loves about me". It made me laugh and cry. It made me realize that I am special and that there is definitely nobody else out there like me. I'm unique (I like to think of it as you-nique). I may be flawed but I'm me...and that's all I can be. Here is what he wrote:
Reasons the World Loves Brooke
She is intelligent. She is funny. She snorts when she laughs. She has raised a great son named Pacen. She always tries to be a friend. She is a good friend. She has a good work ethic. She honors her father, her mother, and her grandparents. She will never turn a person down no matter what the request. She is a great softball player. Despite what life has thrown at her, she has created a beautiful environment around her. She has dorky friends that she adores. She loves her sisters (almost always). She digs adventure. She helps people when they ask. She is classy. She is incredibly kind. She has a crazy bird named after a pirate. She works hard to maintain her health. She encourages those around her. She dreams big dreams. She is determined. She sets and achieves goals. She believes in a life beyond what is given to her. She is even kind to snakes. She has a nice home that she is making nicer. She is very wise. She is a classy dresser. She has great business sense. She is a free spirit. She listens to funky music. She has a huge college degree. She drinks wine. She laughs and laughs. She knows how to hammer a nail and saw a board. She helps her dad plant trees. She insists that country music sucks, despite the fact that 99% of those around her feel differently. She stand on her granddad's homemade scaffold to help him paint when he needs it. She takes care of her finances. She is careful not to judge (except for country music). She drinks margaritas. She scuba dives. She thinks life is better because of sailboats and lighthouses. she has been a lighthouse for many, looking over their personal safety and well being when they would not. She has ink. She is special (but not special ed). She has a huge heart.
She is intelligent. She is funny. She snorts when she laughs. She has raised a great son named Pacen. She always tries to be a friend. She is a good friend. She has a good work ethic. She honors her father, her mother, and her grandparents. She will never turn a person down no matter what the request. She is a great softball player. Despite what life has thrown at her, she has created a beautiful environment around her. She has dorky friends that she adores. She loves her sisters (almost always). She digs adventure. She helps people when they ask. She is classy. She is incredibly kind. She has a crazy bird named after a pirate. She works hard to maintain her health. She encourages those around her. She dreams big dreams. She is determined. She sets and achieves goals. She believes in a life beyond what is given to her. She is even kind to snakes. She has a nice home that she is making nicer. She is very wise. She is a classy dresser. She has great business sense. She is a free spirit. She listens to funky music. She has a huge college degree. She drinks wine. She laughs and laughs. She knows how to hammer a nail and saw a board. She helps her dad plant trees. She insists that country music sucks, despite the fact that 99% of those around her feel differently. She stand on her granddad's homemade scaffold to help him paint when he needs it. She takes care of her finances. She is careful not to judge (except for country music). She drinks margaritas. She scuba dives. She thinks life is better because of sailboats and lighthouses. she has been a lighthouse for many, looking over their personal safety and well being when they would not. She has ink. She is special (but not special ed). She has a huge heart.
"A human being is a single being. Unique and unrepeatable." ~ Eileen Caddy
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